Its finally happening!!!

Ryan is finally starting to show his love for his brother. I truly think he has loved him since the day he was born, but really didn't want anything to do with him. He ALWAYS has to know where he is and what he is doing.

Well for the first time over the weekend it was Ryan's idea to hold him, and he did it was such honor. I don't think Harrison thought so, but Ryan was a very proud big brother for the 2 minutes it lasted, until Harrison just got to out of control for him.

These two boys are truly amazing. If I could only remember this every second so I don't rip my hair out in those horrible horrible times.

God has truly blessed us :)

my two little men!!!

As you can tell Ryan didn't want to be part of our photo shoot :(

Harrison 1 week.
Ryan 33 months.
Taken by thebigpicture173.com

I need HELP!!!

I am on the verge of calling Nanny 911.

I know, I know, it has only been 5 weeks. But Ryan is driving us crazy. And yes, it only started after Harrison was born.

I am writing this post for therapy for me. But I would also love the help with this. Help with what? I don't know, advice, tips, tricks, just understanding, knowing I am not alone, definitely prayers, words of wisdom...something!

Ryan is still a very sweet little boy. But he has become very loud. I am talking about the high pitched screams. Today I started whispering every time I talked, but only while Harrison is sleeping. Then we are aloud to talk at our regular voices while he is awake.

He has become very disobedient. He does not listen to us at all. He will still pick up his toys when asked and go to his room, brush his teeth, take a bath and so on. Some times that still takes a little maneuvering. And for you who don't know Ryan, he is a very good little boy. I can probably count on one hand how many problems we have had with him. God really blessed us the first 32 months of his life. Which he is still blessing us, but definitely testing us too.

All while this is going on, is very sweet and happy. He is never angry or sad. Unfortunately he only yells at us, when we yell at him. He does get his feelings hurt from time to time.

When he does disobey we would always stick him in the corner, which he does do well. A little to well, he almost enjoys it. So in turn has no effect on him. We have started sending him to his room by himself with the door shut for a few minutes. Mainly just to get him away from the environment he was just in. That has worked a little bit.

We thought maybe getting him outside would help a bit. So yesterday he was at the park for an hour. And played outside in the backyard while I made dinner. Might have calmed him down a bit, but not much.

We have tried "special" time with just him. "Special" days with grandma/grandpa and maw maw/paw paw. We have tried "special" treats. All that stuff has done is spoil him more.

I think if we would be a little more routine and always did the same thing, that may help. Even though we have always lead a pretty spontaneous schedule. Matt and Ryan have formed this incredible bond, and I think with Matt being gone he gets a little worse. Its like 80% of the time he has no respect for me anymore.

I do go back to work next week, so hopefully that will help in all areas of the house.

I know this post has been all over the place, but that is how my mind is working these days. So after re-reading this several times and understanding what I am saying, please help me.

Maybe all I need to do is be more patient. So pray for patience

Mom of the year award

I have two wonderful things that makes me Mom of The Year. One for each child.

RYAN- I just thought my son was a boogery child. He gets large, I mean VERY large boogers. They are also extremely hard to remove. We have even tried boogie wipes. The only thing that might loosen them a bit is a warm bath. But not even then can I get them out. I mean I am talking HUGE O' BOOGIES! Well I took him to the doc the other day with Harrison to have this spot on the back of his neck looked at and she does her little exam. Then says oh well you know he does have a sinus infection. Great, because if that is what that is, he has had it for at least 2 months now! Go #1 MOM.

HARRISON- It was some where between the hours of 1 am and 4 am. You know those nightly feedings to where you are just awake enough to feed the baby. Well he was done, and we went to go do our routine diaper change. When I was done I reached above to a shelf to get a little A&D and at the same time I felt some thing warm hitting my hand. Yes, it was pee. Then Harrison started choking...on his own pee! It was a straight shot into his mouth. And I just don't know how to take care of a situation like that! I just wiped him off. And later when I got to thinking about it, I should have done more. And that is what knocked me into first place for my award!

Things a first time mom would NEVER do

...but a second time mom doesn't blink an eye at!

*drops a cheesy omelet on baby, and just picks it up and continues to eat.
*constantly calls baby wrong name, but never comes up with the right one.
*lets baby cry while taking a shower.
*flings baby around and upside down like the nursery hospital nurses did. (you know the ones you gasped at for holding your baby that way)
*swaddled so tight you were scared you were going to break a rib, but didn't care because they were going to sleep under any conditions.
*didn't change diaper till you heard that newborn poop sound, or next feeding.
*didn't change PJ's next morning to a new sleeper unless it was wet.
*goes MUCH longer than 2 days in between the baby's baths.
*gets toothpaste spit on their heads because they will cry if you set them down. But not think twice about what that speck of toothpaste may do to their skin.
*goes the whole first month with out reading them a book, even though its for the mom at that age.
*holds baby and types a whole blog with one hand just for some sort of connection with the outside world.

-I am sure there are many many more, that was just 5 minutes of thoughts!

Harrison and Layla

January 22, 2010, Harrison Niven was born at 8:04 am weighing in at 7 lbs 5 oz and was 19 1/2 inches long. Just a short 3 1/2 weeks later, Layla Jean was born on February 16, 2010. She came in the world weighing in at 8 lbs 4 oz and was 20 1/2 inches long.

Layla is the beautiful daughter of my brother Andrew, and her just as beautiful mommy Kristen. We could not be happier for the two.

My parents are now proud grandparents of 3! Two very rambunctious boys and a very sweet little girl. So I hope they are happy for a bit, because I know I won't be adding to that mix again for a very very long time!!!