shots and belly buttons

(for starters, I don't know what is going on with my blog, I can't organize my pics or flip them how I want them anymore!?!?)

Mr. Harrison went to the doctor last friday, he was 9 weeks, 10 weeks now...do I even need to say how fast the time flies.

He weighed in at 14.2 lbs. He is in the 90%. I just have some chunky monkeys :) He is officially bigger than Ryan at that age.

He got 3 shots. He was a trooper though. And we found out he has a herniated belly button (YES mom, you were right...and thats the last time I am going to say it!) I don't know whats worse, him having it or admitting to my mom he has one, since she has been saying it since he was born. The doc said we don't need to worry about it unless its still there when he turns 5 or 6. So he will just have a little outie for a bit...its sooo cute :)

Its finally happening!!!

Ryan is finally starting to show his love for his brother. I truly think he has loved him since the day he was born, but really didn't want anything to do with him. He ALWAYS has to know where he is and what he is doing.

Well for the first time over the weekend it was Ryan's idea to hold him, and he did it was such honor. I don't think Harrison thought so, but Ryan was a very proud big brother for the 2 minutes it lasted, until Harrison just got to out of control for him.

These two boys are truly amazing. If I could only remember this every second so I don't rip my hair out in those horrible horrible times.

God has truly blessed us :)

my two little men!!!

As you can tell Ryan didn't want to be part of our photo shoot :(

Harrison 1 week.
Ryan 33 months.
Taken by thebigpicture173.com

I need HELP!!!

I am on the verge of calling Nanny 911.

I know, I know, it has only been 5 weeks. But Ryan is driving us crazy. And yes, it only started after Harrison was born.

I am writing this post for therapy for me. But I would also love the help with this. Help with what? I don't know, advice, tips, tricks, just understanding, knowing I am not alone, definitely prayers, words of wisdom...something!

Ryan is still a very sweet little boy. But he has become very loud. I am talking about the high pitched screams. Today I started whispering every time I talked, but only while Harrison is sleeping. Then we are aloud to talk at our regular voices while he is awake.

He has become very disobedient. He does not listen to us at all. He will still pick up his toys when asked and go to his room, brush his teeth, take a bath and so on. Some times that still takes a little maneuvering. And for you who don't know Ryan, he is a very good little boy. I can probably count on one hand how many problems we have had with him. God really blessed us the first 32 months of his life. Which he is still blessing us, but definitely testing us too.

All while this is going on, is very sweet and happy. He is never angry or sad. Unfortunately he only yells at us, when we yell at him. He does get his feelings hurt from time to time.

When he does disobey we would always stick him in the corner, which he does do well. A little to well, he almost enjoys it. So in turn has no effect on him. We have started sending him to his room by himself with the door shut for a few minutes. Mainly just to get him away from the environment he was just in. That has worked a little bit.

We thought maybe getting him outside would help a bit. So yesterday he was at the park for an hour. And played outside in the backyard while I made dinner. Might have calmed him down a bit, but not much.

We have tried "special" time with just him. "Special" days with grandma/grandpa and maw maw/paw paw. We have tried "special" treats. All that stuff has done is spoil him more.

I think if we would be a little more routine and always did the same thing, that may help. Even though we have always lead a pretty spontaneous schedule. Matt and Ryan have formed this incredible bond, and I think with Matt being gone he gets a little worse. Its like 80% of the time he has no respect for me anymore.

I do go back to work next week, so hopefully that will help in all areas of the house.

I know this post has been all over the place, but that is how my mind is working these days. So after re-reading this several times and understanding what I am saying, please help me.

Maybe all I need to do is be more patient. So pray for patience